Thursday, September 24, 2009

no dreams

I dreamt of not dreaming

Sick gut when I wake
Blank squares where my thoughts should have been and
My deepest desire expunged like an unclean record
From me the telephone calls
Blending hyper reality with fantasies of mine
Wishing would call, dream position, but in case
There is no id, there is rejection
Even earthly delights do not tempt me for I,
The 98th meridian, soaring above like
Kite swimming in sea, stinging it’s prey
And yet blank sheets like a canvas
Stretched out in front of me, the dark desert of my mind
Inviting and serene, but haunting and empty
Crawling under the duvet seeking shelter, oasis
Finding not water but an empty well, filled with darkness
Black ripples bounce off the brick and mortar walls
Circular, entrapping, ensnaring thoughts
Bubbling up from a spring, and aquifer that
But not water comes
Left under the dark of the comforter
Blanket of the evening sky
Stars glance down and their reflection
Tissues in patterns on the floor
Sickness takes over and in the mucus
Full bodied creativity with the sun
And at night her shadow: a debilitating insipid silhouette

Thursday, September 17, 2009

bukowski hated mickey mouse

Charles bukowski hated mickey mouse
Living in a meritocracy
I could never fully understand
The sound of her voice sent quivers
Down the shaft of the arrow pointing at it’s target
They sweated and dripped as their muscles
Flexed as the gazelles ran across the savannah
Fleeing from the herding dog the horses ran
Ancient lore of desert pear
I am a desert
Long and dry
I am a rabbit
Going into my hole at night
Falling deeper and deeper
Onto my stash of carrots
I am an engine
I consume your fuel by night
During the day, I am hand cranked
But at night I eat your coal
Smoky and dark, black with energy and ash
Poisoning your lungs as you inhale
Filling you with energy
Becoming the engine
High on a fence in the city somewhere she cries
Her meow of anger and sorrow, atop a lid
The coyote howls with fierce
In envy of the wolf
Vines crawling up my legs
Leary eyed watching
The eyes bulge out of their sockets as
She, mouth agape, glances from afar
What you said, the hat was gone
Prim and proper, necessary and proper
Proper for what? My best friend’s funeral?
You joke about an epidemic
It was happening to me
Don’t make light of what I see as
The way the truth the light, light of a
Slice of a nectarine, red and yellow, opening it’s juicy hollow
To you, pit waiting
Devouring one’s soul of a fruit
You are becoming the food,
You are not just what you eat
But how you eat it too
And the way it tastes when you eat it
The bite of sweet upon your tongue
Nectar flows from the skin as you break
It with your teeth, sweet, and as you chew
The flesh your mouth stings and puckers
Sour yet sweet, it hurts but you can’t stop
Latched on like a babe at the breast
You finish your victim, the ripe fruit
Smashing shells like oysters on a beach
Nuts under your feet
Meat only inside of the hard woody surface
Why evolution played such a trick
Damn those squirrels and their acorns
Stuck with the over ripe pecans they all left behind
And here I am foraging for a measly nut
And I have to step on it to eat it.
Gross. But I guess I can deal with that
Fingers in a v, why do you old like that posture
So delicate so pouty so unemotional
Not ever showing your true face behind that poorly photo
Manipulated frame, you retouch your face in order
To hide blemishes and past scars
Who knows what they’ll dig up under the layers
Stripping away the photoshopped, and leaving a bare photo
Cactus dry and wrinkly
Spiny and rough
Never fragile for a moment
The plum squishes in your hand,
Violets, crused and dying
Leave a perfume behind
Am I just a perfume to be left behind
Not a stink or something easily recalled upon
I barely recognize the scent of a violet
In the forest she sits with the sun placed atop her back
Shining like a beacon
White hair and coat, slender body
She has brought light to the world
Life and energy in her wake
All stare as she passes
Moss covered bark growing flowers
Mushrooms and herbs
Not a 7 layered pizza
Or dipping sauce for chips
But a real garden of nourishment
Lying in wait
A great spirit sits
As the echo of the biwa enters the chapel hall
You can only hope the mats on the floor will soften the blow
Of reality as it hits your novice face
Fair and unsuspecting of the dirty tricks
the demon keeps under the pillows and jugs of sake
Exit no.
Photoshop the penis off the girl for gods sake

Saturday, April 4, 2009

catapult from business card.

so someone thinks they know how to papercraft their way into your heart with a business card that turns into a catapult.

I thought of this idea long ago, and it's much more simpler than you thought.

Materials needed: a business card.



Step 1:


fold card in half long ways (hot-dog style)

Step 2:




fold it in half again the other way

Step 3:



place small object (like pill) on to edge of card
poise, launch

hint: for extra stability, tape bottom of it to secured surface (desk)

I wasted about 10 minutes launching my vitamins across the room.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

dreams again

laying on floor
standing over
bacon deep and
apple deep
balls to walls
said ok, hurts
eat the melon
protested not christian
actions did not intend
understood was not
buying at burgers
was healthy aphrodisiac
tied up in daisies
the shibari pose he
drove over a cliff
bicycled up and down
hugged because left
a dildo in shoe
teach how but
assistant was alive and
in chairs
was ready to go
cousin hugs deeply
not to fear but
better than a prostitute
in the crowd and
fucking, watching as
Julia Roberts dons a wig
smoking conical joints
assistant teaches,
gets up and
turns me over
in the back
left hungry
on the floor

Thursday, December 18, 2008

rough draft of finals week

I breathe the fire
and sit once again
infront of the painting
try to fix it in my hand
the song plays yet
bandannas full of oil
anoint empty heads
and still my apron seeks
I walk by, the light turn on
I walk by again it turns off
the hose leads the way
my footsteps are heavy in the dark
the bricks are quiet still
orion's belt and the moon are brilliant and
the flame consumes ash turns to leaf
I burn my self again
spray the room with fragrance
let the breeze take her away
wax and still no A II D
grid lock cat's mewoyl
dog barks three times
in the window sill she lay
dead and weeping for the light
uptight the key turns

Monday, December 15, 2008

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Saturday, December 13, 2008

recaptcha

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